JOHN: sorry. like i said, my "how to react to stuff" meter is completely fucked right now.
ROXY: thats fair bud
ROXY: real fast i do need to do a quick takeback of all that shit i said last time we talked about janey not being literally the most evil person we knew or whatever
ROXY: i guess i was hopped up on arguin or somethin since that was before we hit our conversational vibe bc of course u were right and i shoulda listened
ROXY: im just glad ur ok
ROXY: or like alive
JOHN: yeah, jury's still out on "ok" but, you know.
ROXY: u said ur house is gone??
ROXY: i would ask how ur feelin but like the answer 2 that has got 2b "prtty bad"
JOHN: i mean.
JOHN: it’s weird.
JOHN: it feels like it should be a bigger deal, I guess?
JOHN: like it’s my HOUSE.
JOHN: but mostly it always felt like my dad’s house?
JOHN: and when i started living there after i moved out of here, it was like i crammed myself back into whatever was left of my kid self?
JOHN: and it didn’t feel good, but it at least was familiar, you know?
JOHN: like living there let me feel closer to my dad, trying to be like the way i remember him, or like how i remember him wanting me to be, or something?
JOHN: and i didn’t realize how much i hated doing that until i saw it all go up in flames.
JOHN: so i guess i could have used my powers to stop the fire and save whatever was left of the place, but i couldn’t bring myself to do it.
JOHN: like some fucked up part of me was glad i got there too late?
JOHN: so i just sat there, watching, trying to figure out why watching my house burn down felt like i was being released from prison.
JOHN: and even now i keep trying to explain it away, as though it’s because of how fucked up everything else is that it made me feel good.
JOHN: but that’s just bullshit.
JOHN: it DID feel good.
JOHN: i DO feel free.
ROXY: no need 2 apologize
ROXY: we just delved in2 my whole gender thing last time so it seems fine for u to have a turn
JOHN: i didn’t say it was a gender thing.
ROXY: well no i just meant like i did some sharing
ROXY: like referrin 2 the topic i brought up when we chatted last
ROXY: but like now that u mention it
ROXY: *meaningful pause*
ROXY: lol well we can move on 2 the favor part if youd rather
ROXY: stick a lil pin in that topic n come back 2 it when u have had sleep
ROXY: like i said the other day its not like this shits figureoutable in 1 sitting anyways
ROXY: movin on
ROXY: dont be mad but theres a part of the house u didnt know abt the whole time u lived here
ROXY: i got a secret lair
ROXY: for my sciences
ROXY: and i get to it via a transportalizer underneath our bed
ROXY: which is 2 heavy 2 move by my lonesome so i just needed to borrow some o your aforementioned powers of wind
ROXY: so if u dont mind woosh away
JOHN: uh ok, well...
JOHN: a secret science lair, sure, i can deal with that.
JOHN: why not!
JOHN: it doesn’t work out great when i do the windy thing indoors, though.
ROXY: aight then no wind bending just use your mangrit