JOHN: i didn't mean for you to find out like this at all, i thought...
JOHN: i mean, i only heard about it yesterday, but i was convinced someone would have told you already!
JOHN: apparently one minute he was there, and the next...
JOHN: none of us even know how it happened, and it doesn't make any sense that he's dead, but he is.
JOHN: he is dead and he's not coming back.
JOHN: talk to me karkat, please.
JOHN: please talk to me karkat.